One tells me to snap out of it, and the other pulls me back in.
I do not know how long i can carry on like this. It's not good. It's not healthy. It's pointless. It's silly even.
I know. I know all of these, yet i am having a tough time pulling through, despite knowing that i must, no matter what.
I just don't know how.
I am doing my very best to get out of it, but just like always, my very best is never good enough.
Seriously, i don't know what the heck i am rambling about.
I am very tired. Exhausted. I'm having insomnia, both on difficulty falling asleep and nocturnal awakenings.
My eyes hurt, from excessive working and excessive crying.
I am sorry that i have all my friends worried. I can either hide it, or let it out on this blog, even though it doesn't really seem to help much.
Do not worry. I'm not suffering from depression. I do not think my life is worthless, nor do i think about ending it. I still believe life can be great and should be full of joy.
I am just going through some tough times that put me in sorrow. Please forgive me for not wanting to talk. Just let me be for a while. Only i can help myself and no one else.
"That which does not kill me makes me stronger."
I just need some time.
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