... the wedding vow that is so sacred to you is just a formality to him and he does not take it seriously at all.
... he did not change but was just back to his old self when his love for you had died off.
... you were already out of his mind and out of his heart that he will no longer miss you like you miss him. All he misses now is just that woman.
... your well-being is of no concern of his anymore, and he did not and will not give a shit about how much you are suffering.
... you are no longer the most important person in his life as he had always claimed so.
... things that he did for you before means nothing, when he did more for that woman, willingly.
... you know him so well to be able to discover the affair soon enough and uncover all the lies, yet you do not know him well enough to know that he is the kind of man who would betray his wife to this extent.
... it was not just a "caught in the moment" kind of affair but he truly loves that woman deeply until he is willing to give up everything for her.
... to him, the length of time being together or knew each other has absolutely no bearing on the degree of love for a woman.
... the thought of he will "wake up" one day and realise you are the true love of his life is simply a wishful thinking. He only truly loves himself.
... the situation that he will regret what he did one day will not happen because he had found the love of his life -- again, through this incident.
... he is now in a new romantic/sexual relationship and you are already a history to him.
... your short marriage is just a joke and has left an eternal scar in your heart even when it is healed.
... the 8 years of good times had past and will never ever return, so it's time to stop thinking about the past and focus on the future.
... the person who called 贝 and whom you love dearly is forever out of your life and you are on your own again.
... everything you have are already ruined by him, and you will have to have lots of courage to start over again.
Yes, Pin, you gotta accept all these instead of running away from it or finding a logical reason to all these. Just accept it, without any reason needed.
Just accept it, accept it, accept it, accept it, accept it... and stop crying.
Labels: introspection
