I left the office at 10.15pm today, and I guess this is going to be the norm for these two weeks.
I'm now racing against time. There are two major deadlines on this and next Friday. For the one that is due this week, we are only about half done with the job only. My team is working hard to meet the deadline now, as we cannot postpone it anymore, for it had already been postponed three times. I told them that if we fail to deliver the program again this time, heads will roll - and for sure that will be my head, and I'm afraid I only have one attached to my neck and I intend to keep it attached.
Then, as if this is not stressful enough, the auditor gotta conduct the IT audit this week, and boss gotta send email to all the managers and talk about budget for the coming years.
I'm not sure how I am coping with this stress really. I kinda just ignore it and am not doing anything to help myself de-stress. I reckon the best way for me to deal with the stress is not to let it bother me by pretending it is not there, hoping that I will gradually get so used to it that my tolerance towards stress will improve and eventually I won't even be stressed anymore. Then I become invincible. Wahahaha...
Well, the fact is that you could probably see that I may have gone insane in the process. Actually, i can seriously feel the stress level increasing as Friday draws near. There seems to be something's at the back of my mind all the time, and I even feel a little bit short of breath because there's this feeling of heaviness weighing on my heart, constantly.
Just last night, I intentionally went to bed earlier at 11:15pm (yes, that's considered early for me), thinking that i would get sufficient 7 hours of sleep for a good start to a busy week. Yet, I woke up on my own at 4am. I guess I'm too used to sleeping for 5 hours only that my boliological clock is totally screwed up now. Either this, or the stress is disrupting my sleep too.
Oh well, whatever it is, I ought to sleep now. Tomorrow's gonna be another long day/week.
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