Cogito ergo scribo

As mentioned, i've been doing house cleaning for the past few weekends. Well, it's not really house cleaning; i was just tidying up my room. Was my room really THAT messy and requires so many weekends to tidy up? Actually it was simply because i was taking my own sweet time to do it.

The thing about house cleaning is that we would always take out the old stuff that we would not normally look at or may have even forgotten. That explains why i took so long to tidy up the things -- i would just look through the old photos and drawings, read through the old journals, essays, and letters... it's like taking a stroll down the memory lane. So a one-weekend job was stretched over four weekends.

Anyway, some of the things i found among the old stuff really surprised me, while others simply left me in stitches. It's amazing how a glimpse into my past would expose my shortcomings right in front of my eyes. It kinda made me understand myself even better. All the while i thought i'm perfect Not that i don't know my own flaws, it's just that sometimes we are so occupied with our daily routines that we never stopped and re-examined ourselves closely. I guess this kind of self-reflection is needed every once in a while so that we can see how silly we were, laugh at ourselves, and then move on with life become a better person.

So for the weeks to come, there will be posts inspired by the old stuff that i've found. As a starter, here's what i found in the drawer -- my New Year's Resolutions for Year 2000:



Ok, whoever wanna laugh at me for not knowing how to swim and cycle can laugh all you want now. The point is not about what i don't know; it's about what i know i don't know and intend to know yet until today still don't know. Get what i mean?

Basically, i've only completed 2 things on the list: no. 5 and 6, but only no. 5 lasts till today. I've not only taken up courses in IT, i've successfully switched line from business to IT field. As for the 10K, well, i did save up more than that but spent it all on my MSc, and have not been able to recover it yet.

So, until today, i still don't know how to swim, cycle or dance (no. 1, 3, and 9). I've almost forgotten how to play guitar (no. 8). I'm growing sideways as i don't exercise at all (no. 2) and the dark circles under my eyes are getting worse because i hardly turn in earlier than 11.30pm everyday (no. 4). I still haven't done any volunteering (no. 7) and the books i read are mostly novels and comics that won't be considered as educational (no. 10).

Darn it, 5 years have passed and i've achieved less than 20% of what i set out to accomplish. What a failure... Ok, that's it. No more new year's resolutions for me.