Cogito ergo scribo

I had two not-so-good dreams over the last two days.

One was that i dreamt that YY and that China woman had moved into our home. She even acted as if she is the mistress of the house and arrogantly told me to stay out of it. YY did not say anything at all but just ignored me, as if i was just a stranger who was not of his concern at all.

Another one was that YY finally stop all his hypocrisy and treated me with his real character. He no longer pretended to still care for me, or tried to cover up his past and present behaviours and the affairs. He talked to me in a very nasty tone and behaved obnoxiously, insulting me by putting me down with hurtful words.

Both times, i woke up feeling very lousy.

It has been a long while that i did not get into deep sleep and hence hadn't been dreaming. Finally when i got to dream of something, it was such bad dreams.

How i wish i could just have a good night's sleep with sweet dream. Probably this is a wishful hope for many years to come.

Labels: life, love