Let's say your wife is melancholic by nature...
You may find yourself drawn to the pretty clerk who has a cherry laugh no matter what she says...
This is the thing that YY told me, that he was drawn to that China woman because of her cheerfulness, while i was always stressed by work, unhappy and serious.
...the 100% that represents all the years that you have been with each other. The storms you have weathered together. The unforgettable moments of sadness and joy as a couple. The many adjustments you have made to love the other. The wealth of memories that you've accumulated as lovers.
Yes, how true. These are exact things that the two 贝s shared and had gone through over all those years. These are the moments like none other, that will never repeat nor duplicated. Even if he is gonna spend the rest of his life with that China woman eventually, the time they will have will never be the same as the time of two 贝s.
Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have.
But faithfulness happens when you start thanking God for what you already have.
Basically this is about being thankful for what we have (知足) and be wary of our greed due to the desire of what we want.
Over all those years, i was always grateful in my heart for 贝 to be by my side. I always thought that i was blessed to have a person who loves me and dotes on me so much to be with me for the rest of my life. Is he the perfect man? Far from it. But i always thought of him as the best in my terms. Of course there are things too that i would WANT him to have or i WANT him to be, but i know that no one is perfect and all that matters was only his unyielding love for me. That was why all these years i only had him in my eyes, my mind and my heart.
Sadly, he doesn't feel the same. What he saw in me was what i lack, the part where he WANTS but i failed to provide or do not possess. Then when he came across a person who happened to have the quality that he WANTS (whether it's a true quality of just a fake one, only time will tell), he fell for her; he let go of what he already held in his hand and went for the things that may or may not be genuine, and may or may not be important in his life on the long term.
Everything's too late now. We cannot turn back time and undo what had been done. What we can do now is only to move on, without each other in life.
I just hope that he has really learnt a hard lesson this time and bear all these in his mind. Whether he will be with that woman or with another in future, i hope that he can finally be faithful to her, treasure her and love her wholeheartedly.
Then probably my sacrifice is more worthwhile.
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