LF told me about a guy friend of hers who actually felt relieve after knowing that his ex-mistress was happily married to another guy. To him, he felt guilty about having her as a mistress before and was worried that he would have ruined her happiness. Then when he got to know that she had found her happiness again, he felt that his guilt has finally been released.
Probably YY is tortured by his guilt too. He feels extremely guilty for betraying me, for breaking our marriage vow and for putting me into such misery. He feels that he is responsible for my happiness, and worrying that he may have ruined my happiness forever.
So, i guess the only way that he would let go is when i find happiness again, whether by myself or with another guy. Probably only in this way that he would finally feel that his responsibility and guilt towards me have ended, and then he could openly be with that China woman or another woman in future.
I gotta be happy again, for both my and his sake.
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