Then last night, had a long chat with the close friend who was also going through the difficulties of separation and divorce. We talked about the heartache and pain, and felt so sad that i cried. I have actually been feeling rather down since a week ago, probably due to the birthday or maybe it's PMS.
Went to bed at 3am and had only about 4hrs of sleep. Dragged myself to the office and saw a vase of flowers on my desk.
I've actually received email on Monday from the company secretary about a delivery of flowers, and i've already guessed it must be from YY. True enough, it was from him, and i did not feel joy at all. Of all the years that we were together, he had only sent me flowers once, on my 32-year-old birthday, and i felt it was the best birthday of my life. This was the second time, on probably the worst birthday of my life, and we are no longer together anymore. The thought of it kinda saddened me.
Then at work today, it was a maddening day as well, for having to deal with the unprofessionalism of the consultants from the solution centre. The sloppy work that they did resulted in us constantly clearing their endless shits, but we still gotta maintain a good vendor relationship with them and not able to reprimand them for it. We gotta swallow the anger and continue to fix the problems that they created. All these really get to me.
One good thing to note though -- i discovered my January payroll was banked in with double the amount. I got the new year bonus again! I gave mom additional SGD500 for her to get CNY stuff as well as some nice new outfits for herself. As for me, i haven't done my CNY shopping yet, so i guess this additional money will come in handy.
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