Cogito ergo scribo

I was major pissed today at a colleague from my department. Uh huh, just second week into the new job and i've already offended someone.

This guy has worked in the company for a long time and he knows the current system inside out. Since the first day i started working, i've found him to be loud and rude because he kept on interrupting the discussions that i was having with one of the managers of our department. I'm not too sure about how others view him and i also have no idea about his duties in the department.

Anyway, today he really rubbed me the wrong way by making tons of negative comments in front of the users when we were testing out the new system. I'm not sure why he was doing that but no one else stopped him and just let him babbling on. It really pissed me off big time and so i just snapped back, also in front of everyone, in a stern and perhaps even impatient tone.

Right after i did that, he quiet down and left the room after a while, with apparent indignation. I was thinking to myself then, oh shit, why couldn't i just control my temper and keep my mouth shut. I didn't wanna be labeled as the bash newcomer who goes around offending the seniors, but it's probably too late. So i guess my intention of having an image of a nice and sweet new joinee was ruined.

But then, i really don't see the point in taking in all these shit just because he's someone with more seniority. Heck, it's precisely because you are a senior, you should behave like one instead of going around sabotaging the work of the colleague from your own department. I'm not the kind who would take nonsense in silence. I'm darn serious about my work and if you give me shit, i'm not gonna just swallow it and smile and say thank you very much. I'll throw it back right at your face and even shove it down your throat.

The consultant saw my anger and during lunch time, she told me that this guy has serious attitude problem. She said my two angmo Directors didn't like this guy either, and he was kinda left on the sidelines because of his attitude. I'm not sure how accurate this piece of info was, but i hope it's indeed the case. Anyway, even if it isn't, what's done cannot be undone. I'll just have to strive on and prove my worth.

Labels: rant, work