The colleagues here said i looked tired. I said i didn't have sufficient sleep last night, and one of them said, "looking at you now, it should not be just last night, right?" I just casually replied that, "yeah, it has been more than two months that i didn't sleep well already."
Gosh, do i really look so bad now?
To them, i must be stressed out by the project and hence looked so bad now. I think it may not be just my panda eyes (which i've had that all along). It's probably the whole negative mood and energy that i'm effusing from my entire body. To them, i used to be an enjoyable and cheerful person to be around; now, my depression is just like a contagious disease and whoever gets near me may be infected as well.
I just hate myself now.
Labels: introspection
