I'm not feeling well at my heart. It feels like "very tight", with occasional twitching, and i am constantly short of breath. I can feel the slight pain at my chest with every breath i take.
My housemate said that is because i'm very kek sim (i.e. sorrowful), and it is very bad for health. She said i'd better see a doctor to do a thorough checkup (i should also take the chance to check for possible STD or AIDS).
Yes, i vaguely remember this feeling. This is the feeling of heartache. I had felt something similar before about a decade ago, but it wasn't as bad at that time. This time, it is extreme heartache, so much so that you can really feel as if the heart is hurting, constantly.
Funny how the person who was supposed to ease all my pains and give me happiness actually ended up giving me a hundred times more of heartache and sadness.
Only that this time round, i'll have to get up by myself. No more fake prince charming galloping in on fake white horse anymore.
I gotta do it on my own this time.
Labels: introspection
