He "met" me online yesterday and tried to cheer me up, and i found what he said to me really ironic (note the sentence in bold).
Eddy
Well, I hope to see you getting yourself out of this misery soon
Yes, I don't mind to lend you a shoulder if you need to
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i am a good person u know... all my life, i only wanna do good
Eddy
You have done well, nothing wrong
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i've never really done anything evil in my life
Eddy
Just carry on doing good
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yet i gotta face with such thing
Eddy
That is just a minor "exam" in our life
So, you will grow further after passing it
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yes, i will become a better person
things that dun kill us make us better, i know
Eddy
We have live for so long, we have been through so many in these years, this is just another one to go through
So, I hope you will soon recover from this state and be a happy you again
You know, what I so like about you, is your 開朗
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seriously, do u feel that i am a cheerful person last time
when you were with the co?
Eddy
So, I hope know you are back in happy life soon
Yes, you are
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u know what.... my husband's reason for falling for that china woman is that
Eddy
You are not as pessimistic as I do, at least
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he was attracted by her "cheerfulness"
that made him feel relax and happy
i told him that i am cheerful too to all my frens and colleagues...
but only to him, i can pour out my problems, that's they whole point of being with a loved one
Eddy
There is no way to compare
But it is clearly that, I like your cheerfulness
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yes, and i think other ppl in the co too...
but it is lost already
now i can't even smile
Eddy
well, if he can do that to you, who guarantees that he won't do that to her
So, it is a blessing that you get to know the real him before that next 10 years of marriage
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yes, everyone keeps telling me this actually
that it's a blessing in disguise to see the true color
Eddy
I am too far a way to see you smile, but you definitely have one of the most comfortable smiles I have seen
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just after such short time of marriage
rather than after many years
Eddy
Yes, that is for sure, a blessing
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haha
ok, now i feel better
Eddy
Okay, life goes on
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always feel good talking to big brother
Eddy
Ha Ha HA Ha
I am glad to make you smile too
remember, just don't hesitate to call me or message me if you need a listening ear
I can always call through Skype
What i found ironic is that the exact things that drew YY to that China woman were the same things that my colleagues like about me.
Everyone puts up a front when faced with people at work. Cheerfulness and sweet smiles are qualities that draw people to you; anyone who has been in the society long enough would know this. Moreover when a person is in the service industry; the person can't be sulking when facing the customers. In reality, how the person really is may be a different story.
But i've realised anyway that this so-called "attracted by her cheerfulness" was merely an excuse to disguise his change of heart. Basically, he was drawn to her for various reason, especially after the sensual touch through massage. Basically, when a man does not love his wife anymore, there can be 101 reasons to justify his change of heart. So what it was really doesn't matter anymore.
The important thing now is that i must regain my real cheerfulness and smiles for the people who love and treasure it.
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