Deep down in my heart, i know i resent it, very much. Even though i know that there is ABSOLUTELY no excuse for YY's affair except his own immaturity and irresponsibility, i do in my heart blame my job as one of the contributing factors.
Too much work, too much travelling, too much stress... while my husband happened to be an immature guy who needs constant show of care and passion, superficial incessant proclamation of love, and infatuated intimacy. So the things just went very wrong when all that he desired were lacking in a relationship.
Yes, again, i do know that it has nothing to do with my current job, but psychologically i just hate it now.
I'm thinking through my options now. But then, i was told that i'm not in the right state of mind to make any right decision now. What i lost may not be the passion for the job but passion for everything now.
So probably i should just stay put for a while and only think about it after i've calmed down.
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