I've heard of people who had insomnia for years and they are still leading normal lives, albeit being exhausted all the time.
But i wonder if persistent sleep deprivation will destruct health, both physically and mentally. This is what worries me now, as i am not sure what the long term effect will be if i still don't get some good quality sleep.
The medicine prescribed by the doctor isn't working, or at least it only worked for one night. The first night i took it, i slept like a log. As i took it rather late (as about 11pm) and i woke up early at 6pm the next day, the effect of the drug was still present and i felt sleepy the whole day.
Then after that, i took it again on another night at 1am. It helped me to get to sleep almost instantly, but the next day i woke up by myself at around 6pm+, with my my mind full of all the troubles and thoughts. Apparently, my mind wasn't resting at all even though i did fall asleep under the effect of the drug.
Last night, i took it at around 1am+ after failing to get to sleep by myself. It didn't seem to have any effect anymore. I tossed and turned in bed for hours. I don't know what time exactly it was when i finally fall asleep, but this morning i work up by myself again at 6am+ and couldn't get back to sleep anymore.
I think i need stronger sleeping pills, but then i do not want to become dependent on it to induce sleep in the long term. I can either let myself continue like this until i find a way to get back to my normal sleep pattern, or i should take sleeping as my first priority now and care about the side effects of the drug later. Yet, this is just not me; i'm never a person who believes in solving one problem for now with something that may cause another problem in the long term.
Anyway, i think i will go and see the doctor again. This time, i'll need to tell him that i'm in distress, and see if he's willing to give me something stronger.
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