Then today, called in sick and stayed at "home" to rest. Was having migraine again.
Actually i've been having frequent migraine lately. Sometimes it's mild but sometimes it gets so bad that i felt nauseous.
Perhaps the stress and unhappiness at work are contributing factors, but i know for sure that turning in late is the main culprit.
Uh huh, prolonged lack of sleep is detrimental to health. I know that. Not only it affects my complexion and makes me look more like a panda now as angel has depicted, it is also affecting my concentration and energy. I think it probably causes my depressed mood too.
Yes, i was actually feeling rather depressed for quite a few weeks already. In fact, i've been crying on-and-off again in the nights. I didn't write about it, probably as a mean to ignore it and hope that it will just go away by itself. Sadly, it doesn't seem to work. I'm even starting to get bad dreams in the nights, dreams of YY being nasty to me or seeing him with his girlfriend...
I didn't really talk about it either because i'm tired of being judged, being told that it was my own fault to be still engulfed by sorrow after more than a year already. I'm sick of having to explain myself or my feelings to people who have not walked the same path and yet think that letting go and moving on are so simple to do.
Perhaps getting more sleep will ease off the depressed mood. Even if it doesn't, at least i'm sure that it will improve my health.
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