Am all alone out there now, back in the big jungle.
For the past 8 years, i've been under his arms, loved, cherished and protected. Even when i'm travelling overseas, i won't feel lonely, simply because i know that there's someone who loves me deeply waiting for me at home.
Now, i gotta live alone again, and that someone may no longer be there. The feeling of not having a home set in, and i do feel fear and apprehension.
This is not easy, but it is something i must do, to salvage myself and probably to salvage my marriage too. There are so much things for me to change and to learn -- i gotta change myself to love myself more; i gotta change my thinking and behaviours; i gotta learn how to be a stronger person; and most importantly, i must learn forgiveness.
Oh God, please grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
And i miss him dearly.
Labels: introspection
