And the strange thing is that the older i get, the more i miss him. Yet, when i close my eyes sometimes trying hard to picture his face, all i could get is just a fuzzy figure. That often reduces me to tears because i fear that dad is slowly fading away from my memories, the only place where he's still well and alive, where i could feel that he's still near.
Last year, i wrote a long post in memory of my dad. I'm not gonna write one this year. Well, not in this blog. I thought i could better express my feelings in Chinese, so i've written a post in Chinese instead.
Dad, you didn't know, and will never get to know, that even though we were never close like many fathers and daughters are, you are my pillar of strength. Whenever i think of you, i tell myself that no hardship can compare to what you had gone through. I tell myself that i would have failed you if i ever give up.
Dad, please don't fade away. I need you, even if you are only in my memories.
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