I think, therefore I write. (我思,所以我写。)

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Friday, May 20, 2011


This week is supposed to be great, because it felt like a short working week since i only need to work in the office for three days.

Yet, i'm actually feeling rather down recently, for a reason that i am pretending it's not there at all.

Sometimes, something is just hidden deep underneath the surface despite your best effort to ignore it. You can do your best not to think about it, but you can't stop yourself from feeling it.

And when you do feel it, there is nothing you can do really, except continue to pretend that it is not there, continue to ignore it, continue to hypnotise yourself into believing that what you are feeling is just an illusion.

But then, once in a while, all that is pent up inside you just get so bloated that it overpowers and consumes you. It's as if it has a life of its own and you can't control or contain it anymore; in fact, it controls you instead.

That is when you stop wrestling with it. Let it out; let it overflow; let it weight down on you even, but do not attempt to suppress or deny it at all. You know that this is the only way to deflate it before it explodes. You know that all these are just yet another occasional uncontrollable moments that you have, and it will eventual wear off.

Until then, you just have to be patient.


hope you are alright. i know you are doing your best not to let yourself hurt anymore. please stay strong, you gotta be strong. don't give up and let the devil triumphs at the end.


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Tuesday, May 17, 2011 @ 12:13 am: Worked from home
Sunday, May 15, 2011 @ 3:27 am: Unwell
Wednesday, May 11, 2011 @ 3:52 am: Upbringing
Monday, May 09, 2011 @ 1:52 am: Self-centered girl
Sunday, May 08, 2011 @ 6:53 am: Breakthrough
Sunday, May 08, 2011 @ 5:09 am: Waiting for the results
Saturday, May 07, 2011 @ 5:14 am: Trivia of my uneventful days
Thursday, May 05, 2011 @ 3:59 am: A new bag
Tuesday, May 03, 2011 @ 3:53 am: A new tenant
Sunday, May 01, 2011 @ 5:19 am: A few things I noted about the royal wedding