I have low energy, am unable to sleep well, being haunted by the past and crying uncontrollably when i'm alone, don't feel like doing anything or meeting people, having irregular eating pattern... and this has actually lasted since last year, but i've been hiding it very well and no one around me really knows about it.
LF asked me to see a counsellor, but i'm not sure what good it would do to me except spending the money away. It isn't as if i have no one to talk to and need a pair of ears. In fact, i don't feel like talking about it and then listen to all the advice on what i should or should not do, because frankly, i know all the theories myself too, but just that i'm not putting it into action.
Sometimes i really don't know which is worse -- not knowing what to do, or knowing what to do but not doing it.
This can't go on. It may get even worse if i don't do anything about it.
Well, at least i still know something isn't right. I'd better get myself fixed before i don't even feel anything is wrong anymore.
Labels: introspection
